Emergence

Dear Blogworld! 

I am alive and kicking.  Thank you for stopping by and checking while I was gone.  I really was gone, huh?! Yeah, missed you too :) 

So there's just one reason that kept me away:

My PTA Life - I plunged headlong into community work because the largely self centered parent community in Evergreen frustrated me beyond anything else.  I find myself surrounded by parents who seem convinced that schools are geek-building-factories. They see a binary purpose in kids coming to school - Get high grades / Win accolades.  1/0 period.  

I'm in the midst of hypocritical parent volunteers who claim to "do" a lot for everyone, when in reality they are in it for just to hold a spotlight only on their kids :( I wasn't at peace with myself that I had rooted myself into a community where people co-existed in peace not because they've learnt to live with each other, but because they've excelled at the fineart of ignoring each other's existence and shielding themselves with those with mutual needs - sigh! Lots of depressing cliques around me I tell ya! BUT - Thankfully, just as I had hoped, and worked at, there are a few people who still live in this country NOT to make it just like where they come from, but to make it better at what it is already good at - equal rights, speaking up for common good......yeah, idealistic stuff like that.  Well, someone's gotta keep trying.  

So, I've been busy rolling out school wide programs, fighting red-tape to get the ball rolling, rising above petty popularity battles, letting braggers dwell in their false pride, walking past cliques that hang around for mutual admiration...... because the success of my success speaks louder.  There is a convergence of multi-racial people around me that transcend barriers of self centered motives and petty gains to actually build something of value.  

You can tell I'm onto something right? Yes! I am.  Daily battles still exist, like neighbors who have birthday parties and play dates that don't involve my kids, petty parents who make sure our family feels left out in as many ways as possible - high school girl behavior from parents whose kids are soon to be in high school - it's sad.  I educate my kids on dealing with these situations while I laugh away their pettiness - "Forgive them, for they know not what they do", I tell myself.  It's the right thing to do, but certainly NOT the easiest.  

The good thing? It brought me back here to rant!! LOL! So, if I'm away from here for a really long time - trust me I'm making the world a better place in own little, tiny radius around myself.  I have to believe it counts - Gotta keep going.  Or, as Robert Frost would say......."Miles to go before I sleep, miles to go before I sleep..."